Birthday Plans

I have a big birthday coming up at the end of September and yesterday, we began to plan some celebrations which was very exciting as respite gives me not only time to catch up on sleep, but also it gives me thinking space. On my actual birthday I would like to share a meal with a group of friends to celebrate in style. We have identified two local alternative venues that have private dining rooms, so that we feel as though we have the place to ourselves. I enjoyed writing my list of friends to invite and I started to ponder Joshua’s inclusion in the midweek celebration?

I decided that I would like him to join us, as he is a large part of my 50 years on this earth : if he can stay awake, he would love a party, with all the noise and laughter, he is unlikely to eat anything. He has been known to play up to a crowd, although he may not appreciate his Mum being distracted. So Joshua, has made it onto the guest list and the plan is underway…

I have written before about how Joshua’s unpredicatbility has made me less inclined to make future plans, but something like  a big birthday, does require planning and although it is still 3 months away, I have to admit to getting excited yesterday as we discussed options. I have requested several  small celebrations with different groups of family and friends, rather than one party with everyone together. That way the celebrations go on for longer and I am able to focus more on different groups more fully. I have also requested, no surprise parties where I walk into a dark room and people leap out from the darkness shouting ‘surprise!’, I must be too much of a control freak to appreciate that but also, I enjoy the anticipation too much to miss out on it.

Having a September birthday means that I was one of the oldest in my year at school, and so I will mark one of the first of a year of golden anniversaries. Birthdays are a time for reflection as well as celebration, so as it approaches, you can expect some reflective blogs looking backwards across my life. As I left home in 1985, to go to university, I had no idea what direction my life would take : what career I would pursue,where I would live, who I would marry and biggest of all, that I would have Joshua in my life. I am delighted to report that as I approach my half-century, I am happy with my lot and I feel most fortunate. Nobody knows what the future brings and I have adjusted and have now learnt to accept unpredictability in my life and to go more with the flow. In addition to looking back, I will also be looking forward to my next 50 years and to what more might be in store.